Every time i am with a woman she blood or she screams a lot

I was 14 the first time i had sex he was with a 20 year old girl she had the experience and thought she would have to teach me but on the contrary i turned him and put my cock in her ass and she bled, i threw it out of her hair and hit her when she screamed. she was a little scared and she didn't want to come back with me. and from that day forward, i feel the same, whenever i'm with a woman, there's no other way. only a few prostitutes have agreed to see me again, but with a very expensive charge which i don't want to pay. i am not a freak, i am a man who loves sex and who loves your body